Saturday, September 15, 2007,4:49 pm
OHKAY .
long weeeeek (:
but im not allowed to post long . cos dad's kinda pushing .
wont beat about the bush anymore ba .
this week bad and good .
in opening my eyes big and WIDE .
i got to know . who are those who are fair-weathered friends and who arent.
at least for now.
when graduation comes, a new page will turn (:
but . i wont go and make a fuss with them or anything .
i dont think i have the right to ?
they have the right to express their thoughts and live their lives, and so do i.
at least i think i do =x
anyways . on the brighter note .
this week made me realise those that i have too .
those that stick by me . even though its not so obvious (:
maybe its true .
maybe one day we will all look back at these and laugh . maybe we wont .
i dont know (:
but i want to have as little regrets as possible .
OHKAY .
my floodgates kept opening and closing .
mostly thanks to IMAH *slaps .
she like . got the key or something .
stupid ass . hahaha .
ohkay . maybe im not going specific enough . hahaha .
yesterday . was kinda emo day . sort of .
spent the night before at sheela's house .
studying (: mostly homeworking actually . that was enough.
i couldnt really concentrate . because of something (:
but we studied hard ohkay ! hahaha .
the hours passed like minutes .
even after all that shuni told me .
i dont know .
there's something about this .
i KNOW what following this path will probably bring me .
and all the mistakes .
but part of my gut accepts it , even wants it .
i just want some closure (:
after so long . as least i deserve something right ?
but . thanks alot shuni . i need a reality check once in a while to take my head from the clouds .
im just saying , who says all of that has to be a bad thing ?
im a sadist to my own life :D
emotions erupting and spurting all over for everyone .
sec4 is volcano year .
i wondered, just for a while . how my upper sec life would be in hillgrove .
i never said a word. cos i guess nobody can understand how i feel .
but on thursday .
imah taught me that .
a great friend will always listen .
even if they may not understand .
the sincerity in it all will show .
thats what friends are for .
"you reep what you sow"
i hope this becomes your reality one day (:
WOOPS =x
this may all seem confusing .
but yeah .
those who care would understand (: hahaha .
struggled to stay awake in school .
actually . for some reason . i wasnt as tired as i thought i would be .
yawns here and there, but still quite spirited :D
alot of thanks to azureen and julia .
had a "power nap" and then jolted up again .
the first ever time i slept in mr cheong's class .
cant control =x
thanks azureeen :D hahahah .
after that . i try to sleep also cannot . hahaha .
someone's in the morning entangled my thoughts .
initially . i thought nobody would care to listen .
everyone entangled in their own web .
but . thanks alot imah and shalini and zhihao and qianting :D
i was kinda shocked that it was them . but im thankful.
sometimes . sincere support is all youu need (:
even if it comes in a tight slap . HAHA .
that night . i wanted to go study overnight with they all .
but .
ohmygosh . i seriously cant explain what happened .
after i hang up the phone .
i like . go get towel all . then went to bathe .
then i switch on the light .
and next time i know .
its morning and i just woke up .
i was like WTH WTH WTH ?!?!
was super pissed off myself . all over again .
haiis ):
i broke down lurh . dad helped me back to my feet .
conunsel me . haha . gave me fatherly advice (:
then felt the splurge of inspiration .
but i think its subsided now =x lol .
anyways . for all o'level students out there .
just do your best .
no regrets on your side .
and God will do the rest (:
he wont let you down . and you'll get what you deserve (:
heartofGodchurch